Here it is 11:17 PM, and I'm totally battling for my life on FF13, trying to beat the last of Barthandelus. I mean, might as well call it a wrap 'cause he's got about 5 milly HP, and I'm kinda sorta probably not ready. I just so happened to look at the clock and realized--"Oh CRAP, I never wrote an entry for today!" Now, I could have thrown in some filler (like I did for dinner today, lol) but I'm doing my best to avoid the filler stuff until sometime next week when I forget again. So, let's talk about what I do best--procrastination.
I am the procrastination queen. I did it in high school with papers, did it in college (can you say--"all nighter"? Had a lot of those!), and my life is no different. I look at go-getters with a "deer in the headlights" kind of look, 'cause I just don't have that drive. It's a touch shameful, considering I want to be a writer with a 9-to-5 job as a social worker (or medical bill coder, or some kind of monotonous day job that basically pays the bills while I work on my passion at night!)
How can I possibly procrastinate with so many stories to finish? Or, so many crafting projects and other things? Oh yeah, don't get me started on fitness. I'm actually pushing myself on THAT one with an app called GymPact. Not only do I have to work out 5 days a week, but it has to be for 30 minutes or I get CHARGED 5 dollars each day I miss out. I decided to try it out and see if I can keep some part of my procrastination hacked away. If it keeps the doctors off my butt at the same time, I've got nothing to lose.
Being a procrastinator with a busy mind is complete chaos. I want to do things all the time. I want to plan events, travel, get moving, pretty much kick it Iyanla style and fix my dang life. Time, however, is never on my side! I get distracted, I open about 900 browser tabs, then I'm back in front of the 360 cursing at imaginary people! All the while, I can hear my dad in the back of my head saying "no wonder you don't get anything done! Not one iota!"
However, when I'm manic, I get everything done. Clean room, organized shelves and files, and maybe time to start a new writing project. With a cup of coffee in my hand, I've applied to 5 neighborhood establishments and finally got around to throwing out a million odds and ends in my dresser drawer. Then, I feel great. I feel accomplished. I feel like an adult with promise!
While procrastination shields me with time to relax, I often feel like it takes me away from the real world. The escape is nice, but the lost time with nothing to show for it....sucks. Although I didn't make a New Year's Resolution this year, that's usually my secret back-up every year--jump-start my life, be seen, and fix things up.
So I guess by the time I'm in my 70's or something, I'll have it together. Har har. Will time be patient with me, and let me get that far? We'll see. Maybe all these things are happening for that so-called "awesome memoir" in my head...if I can even get to the point of creating a memoir file!
I am the procrastination queen. I did it in high school with papers, did it in college (can you say--"all nighter"? Had a lot of those!), and my life is no different. I look at go-getters with a "deer in the headlights" kind of look, 'cause I just don't have that drive. It's a touch shameful, considering I want to be a writer with a 9-to-5 job as a social worker (or medical bill coder, or some kind of monotonous day job that basically pays the bills while I work on my passion at night!)
How can I possibly procrastinate with so many stories to finish? Or, so many crafting projects and other things? Oh yeah, don't get me started on fitness. I'm actually pushing myself on THAT one with an app called GymPact. Not only do I have to work out 5 days a week, but it has to be for 30 minutes or I get CHARGED 5 dollars each day I miss out. I decided to try it out and see if I can keep some part of my procrastination hacked away. If it keeps the doctors off my butt at the same time, I've got nothing to lose.
Being a procrastinator with a busy mind is complete chaos. I want to do things all the time. I want to plan events, travel, get moving, pretty much kick it Iyanla style and fix my dang life. Time, however, is never on my side! I get distracted, I open about 900 browser tabs, then I'm back in front of the 360 cursing at imaginary people! All the while, I can hear my dad in the back of my head saying "no wonder you don't get anything done! Not one iota!"
However, when I'm manic, I get everything done. Clean room, organized shelves and files, and maybe time to start a new writing project. With a cup of coffee in my hand, I've applied to 5 neighborhood establishments and finally got around to throwing out a million odds and ends in my dresser drawer. Then, I feel great. I feel accomplished. I feel like an adult with promise!
While procrastination shields me with time to relax, I often feel like it takes me away from the real world. The escape is nice, but the lost time with nothing to show for it....sucks. Although I didn't make a New Year's Resolution this year, that's usually my secret back-up every year--jump-start my life, be seen, and fix things up.
So I guess by the time I'm in my 70's or something, I'll have it together. Har har. Will time be patient with me, and let me get that far? We'll see. Maybe all these things are happening for that so-called "awesome memoir" in my head...if I can even get to the point of creating a memoir file!